I have lost my inner voice

My head is no longer working as it used to. I have lost my inner voice. That voice who always talk to me and guides me when I write. I am usually full of ideas. These days, I am rather lost and blur. 

Recovering from the final exam and a 4 day trip to Langkawi for work is where I wish to put all the blame on. I see myself as the workaholic who is always at the top of her work. Yet, I am extremely exhausted and very badly in need of a break even though I just had a break. Well, Langkawi was mostly exhaustive work that starts at 4 am and ends at 11 pm but my eyes had fun looking at the breathtaking views. 

I wonder how do I get my old self back. That girl always fills up her "to-do list" as soon as she is awake from her bed. She tries to accomplish everything that is on the list so she feels like she is on the right track. 

Now, I am just staring at my "to-do list". I don't know what to do. I am coming with ideas but I end up finalising them as lame and boring ideas and it will be a waste of time. I am no longer coming up with bomb ideas.

What do I do? Should I go take a course to refresh my brain? Should I read? Should I rest again by going on holiday? Well, I wonder how long will this mental block take place. I need myself back very badly. 

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